tick tock

now i am excited!

a lot of things happened today which provided me a lot of adrenaline in my vein
i am thrilled..i am excited..i am happy..i am smilling
owhh yeahh bebehh

ok first thing first.

i arrived at my office very early in the morning ..which is 7.30 am
muhahahaha..my colleagues were surprised to see me that early
as normally i sampai around 9 gitu..hahaha
and tak sampai 10 mins, my colleague dtg kat meja, kasi a plastic of henna leaves =D
dia siap tunjuk gambar dia kwen..mmg merah gilee wehh...i likee!!!!
i mmg jarang sgt pkai inai mase kecik2 dulu
so bile dah besar panjang ni baru nak pakai for the sake of my wedding
of course teruja wehh..cant wait to see my hands with henna! =)
but sy just nak pkai inai kat jari je..no ukiran or anything
sbb sy mm tak suke ukiran di tangan, rase tak sesuai ngan tgn saye
n bile ukiran inai tu pudar, sungguh tak chantekk tgn tu nanti
so a big no to ukiran inai..n my mom agrees with me..phewwww

then another colleague came, giving me the napkin table yg i mintak dia jahitkan =D
i was looking for napkin, but i cudnt find any that fit with my theme color or my budget
and suddenly, out of no where, i asked my colleague if she cud jahitkan 15 napkins for me
and she said yes! thanks babe!
so total damage for 15 napkins is RM15 + sebalang biskut crispy chips yg sedap =)

in the afternoon, with my fiancé, we went to Nilai 3 for the last time before being husband n wife =)
actually we planned to go there right after office hour like we usually did, but he suddenly got planned with his friends and i suddenly received orders for blueberry cheesecake, to be delivered tomorrow.
so wat did we buy?ribbons of course, for my wedding cakes, my bunga pahar and corsages. 3 boxes of bunga pahar, and 2 stands for bunga pahar.

back to the office, i received call from bridal boutique, saying that they already wanted to go to my house to set up the pelamin. terkejut kejap..awal gile tauu..but i likeeee it too!! at least takde cuak or panik or risau if dia pasang last mins rite? so i gave them my papa's and home number as i will only be back on Saturday..cant waitt to go homee!!

then i emailed jaja about her veil, i love her veil very much, but i am just not sure if it can suit my nikah dress.watever, nak try jugak kot2 match la kan..bergaye sy dgn veil jaja nanti..hahahahha (cross all my fingers n toes for it..as well hoping that kb wont be too packed on thursday)

pestu i placed order for swimming suit muslimah at http://islamicbajurenang.blogspot.com/ (moose jgn gelak kat aku ok..haha)..that means, snorkelling is on bebehhhh!

last but not least, my sis and my bil, along with their lovely kids are going to take flight tonite at 8 (uk time), and will only arrive here tomorrow at 10pm (m'sia time) yeayyy!! x sabar nyeee nk jumpeeee =)

update tak merapu: igauan veil

ok..sy still tk decide lg nak pakai veil mane utk akad nikah, bole?hahahha
lagi 9 hari..tp veil masih tak setel.adoii..pening2.

mule2, i mean awal2 dulu..ingatkan nak tempah veil nikah ngan KV
but then, bile sy decide utk tempah sendiri songket utk bersanding
sy tuka plan..nak tempah dua2 veil ngan KV
tp disebabkan kemerosotan ekonomi yg dialami diseluruh dunia
so sy just tempah veil (n tambah tudung plak) ngan KV..hahahha

pestu sy ingat nak sewa je veil nikah ngan bridal yg buat pelamin tu
tp ehemmmmmm veil dia kurang menarik..yg kaler cream pon nampak dah comot n kusam je (or mate i rosak kot ari tu)
pestu i tot nak singgah beli kat jalan TAR
and till now tak tersinggah2 lagi beli eventho dah beribu kali pegi sane bulan ni
(ecehhh beribu kali kunun)

memandangkan skang jln TAR sesak gile
and sy pon takde mase dah nak singgah..i think i just have to sewa veil bridal tu
tp before im going back to kltn
nak jugak tanye this Q:

ade tak any of u yg ade veil kaler cream/gold yg bleh i sewa/pinjam? =)

haiii..lagi 4 hari nak balik, baru terpk nak tanye soklan cemni kat blog..haha

update merapu

ok..i start loosing my grip..it becomes harder for me to handle all the stress, conflicts and thoughts about my wedding..of course deep inside my heart..i am super duper happy to be married..cant wait to live happily ever after (insya-Allah) with mon prince charmant
BUT..this is too much! i didnt know that a wedding can really drive me crazy (i am not a bridezilla..just not yet!)

i dunt know where shud i start..and hell no, i dont know how to complain..people may see me as a b2b who is excited about her wedding and handle so well all the tasks.. but not so many can see my gloomy-not-so-cheerful side.

major source of the stress comes from me..where i start to have some thoughts..and questions start with "what if" become common in my mind right now. And those questions touch every aspects, including past life, life after marriage and you-know-what. And i dont have any answer for those Q, thus it kinda scares me..well a lot!

and i already have nightmares ok. started with the one that i have months ago. bole tak sy mimpi terlupe yg ari tu supposed to be ari my akad nikah, sampai le my tunang sms me ckp he's on the way to my house dgn rombongan keluarganye for the akad ceremony?panikkkk ok!

mimpi seterusnya, me n him was dlm jamuan makan2, and i saw a simple pelamin on stage (i guess dlm dewan la kot) and a lady sat on it..and suddenly my fiance asked my permission to be on stage, as he's married to that lady (bulat mate i when he said that) but he gently promised me that he's going to file a divorce asap so that we can get married afterwards.. jumpe kat opis keesokan harinya, i directly asked him who was the lady in my dream..bole takk??hahahha

Tadaaaaaa! that's current me.. result of being away from him for 5 days + an ex who tried to reach me.

makin nak dekat makin, makin tak tau nak update pasal ape dah..hahhhhhaaa sorry guys